So here we go, and we’re gonna take it slow,
We’re ready now to touch the sky,
This must be how it feels to fly…
One of the most memorable conversations that I’ve had with my mom was regarding some of the fear that I have lived with to some extent for as long as I can remember. This conversation happened my senior year of high school, and was in preparation for the adventure ahead called missions and college. The thing that I remember so much about this conversation was her words near the end. “This is your time. My wish for you is that you will find those wings of faith and fly.”
And I’m still working on it. But I feel more and more on the verge of hitting that cliff. The one that will require me to jump off and fly in order to continue moving forward in this adventure called life. I’m not trying to be poetic here, but I love that imagery.
Here’s why this choice is so incredibly hard. I’m uncomfortable with heights. Ok, they scare me. The instinct for me is not to run full-speed ahead, taking a chance to live life to the fullest. I also often listen and swallow the lies that I don’t bring much to my relationships, that I’m awkward and don’t bring much to the table. My instinct is to find where I’m safe, and wallow in that space. But that’s not living life, or experiencing new things. That’s checking out in the middle of it.
I love those three lines. It describes 100% what I’m feeling. Here we go. I’ve got some amazing things in store for this next year, and a lot of growing up to do. But I’m stepping out toward the cliff, choosing to make choices that are going to create memories, and that are going to change my life. We’re gonna take it slow. I am not a fast mover. At all. This is going to take me some time. I’m going to mess up along the way, but I will continue to move forward. We’re ready now to touch the sky, this must be how it feels to fly. I’m done with standing still.
My prayer and challenge for anyone reading this: You have it in you to change the lives of those around you. But whether that’s your intent or you just want to meet your own personal goals, do not let your fear stop you from taking the chance. Be confidant in your abilities and gifts, know that you bring something to this world, take chances and fly.