OK. So I may have kinda brought this on myself. Maybe. But it’s still a little stressful. Fine… it’s a lot stressful. What’s so stressful? Well, I’m so glad that you asked! 🙂
I’m currently ending my senior year in highschool, preparing to go to college in Canada, and preparing for a summer-long missions trip in New Orleans, LA. Do you know how much paperwork that means? Yeah! Not my favorite extra-curricular activity.
Don’t get me wrong! I’m super excited about the adventures ahead… the process is just… well… overwhelming. I mean, I’m leaving for New Orleans on June 15th (hopefully!), will be in Haiti from July 19th-26th, will return from New Orleans on August 15th, and will leave 10 days later for Canada and college. Oh, and did I mention I still need to graduate from high school?
I guess the one thing I’m really realizing right now is that time is something I don’t have a lot of. I have a month until I want to leave for a different state and I have to somehow balance that time between all of the people that are important to me. AGGGGHHHHH! I want to be involved in all of the exciting things that come with being a senior, but sheesh! I don’t know how to balance it all.
The one thing that is great about all of this is that I’m learning to be more organized. I’m not a planner or list writer or whatever else. I’m a professional procrastinator. I’m REALLY good at it. But with all that’s been going on, I’ve been forced to make lists (which makes me sound like some stuffy housewife… hmmm, not sure how I feel about that) and I realized that, wonder of wonders, it actually works! Whoda thunk? 🙂
Actually, the most important thing I’ve been learning is trusting God with the unknown. That’s really hard for me. Growing up, I was always the girl that struggled with fear. I always like to know what I’m getting into. But, especially with this summer, there is a ton of unknown! And I’m starting to get to the point where I’m ok with that. Not knowing if all of my support will come in is easy to worry about. But I’ve come to the realization that God has me here and I have no doubt about that. So I just have to believe that He’s gonna take care of the rest! 🙂
“If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.” Psalm 139:9-10